10 years....

Ten years ago today... How can ten years go by so quickly and yet I still feel the same today as I did ten years ago... I am still in love with you just as I was ten years ago. When we both stood up and said "I do!" You with all your wonderful quirks and your smile. I can not believe that this time flew by. I think about all the things we have been through. Your deployments, the changes... Ten years ago I never dreamed I would be here without you on this our special day. I also never dreamed I would go back to college. I love you, I miss you and I look forward to being able to have you here with me forever when you finally come home! I am tired of having to share you with the Army. We have been married ten years and only been together for maybe five of those ten years. So as I sit here remembering our first day as Man and Wife, I want to simply say thank you for your love. Thank you for the sacrifices you have made for your country and for us your family!

Dr's appointments....

So on June 2nd I had an appointment with my new PCP and we started to build a Dr patient relationship... I have known this Doc for a while now. he is my Grandmother's Doc and has been for years and recently became my mother's doc also. So anyway he is taking history and all the good stuff docs are supposed to do when you begin to see them. when I weighed in with the nurse I was 304 pounds... :P yuck I was not happy about that but hey what can I do except change it. So anyway I finish up with the doc and he tells me he is gonna do some lab work and refer me to a GYN based on some of my history. So I go off down the hall to his wonderful LPN and she does the blood draws and gets me the 24 hour urine bottle for that test that he wants and she gets on the phone to try and get me an appointment with a GYN... and off I go I work on my 24 hour urine and go in on Friday to turn it in to labcorp... when that is done i ran upstairs to the docs office and the nurse tells me she was just about to call me that she is trying to get ahold of the doc... Now I already had an appointment scheduled for Monday but she said some of my labs were back and she was trying to see if the doc wanted to start me on meds before seeing me on Monday... NO SUCH LUCK... Doc did not call back so i was waiting until Monday to find out the news... Monday rolls around and I find out that My Thyroid is KAPUT! No working for me! Hum ok so no Thyroid.... if fact "the worst level" the doc has seen ever.... so that is why my metabolism was ZERO... ZIP... ZILCH... That is what makes it harder for me to loose weight. Hum ok so Blow one... Blow two my liver functions were high but he believes they are normal due to the Tylenol I was taking for my bronchitis and my weight... alright I can live with that! So he tells me I am gonna have to take medication for the rest of my life, I can live with that.... Also, I am scheduled to see the GYN the next day and Doc wants the GYN to work me up for PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome) No problem I can handle anything that comes my way! So off I go armed with my new prescriptions and wait overnight until I see the GYN...

I go to see the GYN and I am pleasantly surprised.. He is very nice and covered every base... runs tests and does an ultrasound... even does a biopsy for Uterine Cancer... which I am supposedly at higher risk for because of my irregular periods as well as my grandma's history of uterine cancer... no problem I am just happy that someone is finally working for me! So I learn that day that I do have PCOS and that I will have to start Birth Control... No problem except that every BC I ever took in my life made me gain weight! SO GYN assures me they have made strides in BC since I was last on it in 1999 and that this will be the only way to treat my PCOS and that I will even be able to someday have children again if I want... (Do I want that?) Ok, so no more worry about miscarriages and I have a diagnosis!!! I am excited... maybe with the meds and treatments I can really start to loose some of this weight. So now I have been on the thyroid meds for a week and a day... and I am amazed i am more energized... I do not wake up feeling like I got no rest and I know that that is so completely foreign... all my life I was a cranky grumpy morning person and for the first time in my life I wake up and I am not cranky or grumpy... I feel rested and ready to go for the day... So unreal.... Ok and now I follow up with Doc next Monday for more labs to see how my body is reacting to the thyroid meds and I also follow up with the GYN in two months.... So while this is really probably not a big deal it is huge to me! I am diagnosed and maybe this will be the beginning of something that makes it easier to make the changes I hope to make... OMG and I quit smoking.... no CIGS anymore... at least I hope! can't smoke and take the BC so I pray for strength and try to find other things to keep me going..... Cinnamon Toothpicks are working for now....