Every time I log onto YouTube or Facebook I see where people I follow or people I know are setting goals for themselves. I have set goals in the past. My problem is I never seem to follow through with those goals. Oh I achieve small victories every now and then in my larger scheme of things. Like when I went to the doctor yesterday. I was happy that I had lost some weight but I always seem to bounce around where my weight is concerned. I need to seriously sit down and think about what I want out of my new life. I know that I want to lose weight. I know that I want to quit smoking. I know that I want to finish college. I want a lot of things. I guess now I need to set realistic goals even if they are small ones.
Main Goals
1. Lose Weight
2. Quit Smoking
3. Finish College
Ok so there I have a list, it is small but yet the desires in it are very huge for me. I need to do all three of these things. I need to lose the weight and get healthier for many reasons but mainly I want to do this for myself! I weigh 301 lbs. in the larger scheme of this goal I would like to weigh about 170 lbs. That means I need to loose 131 lbs. I know this sounds huge to me. So I must break this down into smaller goals baby steps that are reasonable and healthy. So to reach this goal I must first start to exercise more. Ok so to reach this goal I need to be accountable. How am I going to do that? I have no idea yet.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
301 lbs. Life again is changing!
Wow so ok I know that I have not been on in over a year and a lot has changed. I am now divorced and dealing with the issues of that. I am also working, not full time yet but hey I have a job! I also have survived... ok so now to the reason I came to Blog......
Ok so I went to the Doctor for my annual physical and I will admit I was scared to step on the scale this morning. As I gingerly stepped up I could not take my eyes off the scale good or bad, I was just gonna have to face the reality of what the scale said. the display flashed until it finally settled 301 pounds okay so it was not so bad. Now I know... 301 pounds is still morbidly obese but I felt as if I had a small victory. At least I had not gained. So anyway Life is once again changing for me after a wonderful year with my three beautiful children I am now going to only have one of them living with me. Alex and Amber are off to new adventures and I miss them terribly. They left on the 29th of May for Los Angeles, California. My heart broke into three parts that weekend. Rachel left for a month the very next day to her Dad's in Texas.
Amber will be living with her mother in L.A. She starts high school finally a freshman in the fall at Woodrow Wilson High where she will be a Mule! I am excited for her she was accepted into a LAPD magnet program at this high school. She is driven and will succeed in what ever she sets her mind to!
Alex will be living with his Father in Colorado City, Texas. This move was not an easy one for me or Alex. He did not want to leave and I certainly did not want him to either, but life is funny and choices that Alex made this past spring have dictated his options and he was given the choice of either L.A. with mom or Texas with dad and I am happy for him that he choose to be with dad. I know that this will give him a chance to bond with his father and be with his wonderful family there. He will be attending Colorado High School (home of the Wolves) as a Junior in the fall.
Which leaves Rachel and I here in Pueblo. We will go on as we always do I am sure but it will be very different and Alex and Amber will be missed. I will be counting the days until their return for a visit. Although at this point I am not sure when that will be.
Ok so I went to the Doctor for my annual physical and I will admit I was scared to step on the scale this morning. As I gingerly stepped up I could not take my eyes off the scale good or bad, I was just gonna have to face the reality of what the scale said. the display flashed until it finally settled 301 pounds okay so it was not so bad. Now I know... 301 pounds is still morbidly obese but I felt as if I had a small victory. At least I had not gained. So anyway Life is once again changing for me after a wonderful year with my three beautiful children I am now going to only have one of them living with me. Alex and Amber are off to new adventures and I miss them terribly. They left on the 29th of May for Los Angeles, California. My heart broke into three parts that weekend. Rachel left for a month the very next day to her Dad's in Texas.
Amber will be living with her mother in L.A. She starts high school finally a freshman in the fall at Woodrow Wilson High where she will be a Mule! I am excited for her she was accepted into a LAPD magnet program at this high school. She is driven and will succeed in what ever she sets her mind to!
Alex will be living with his Father in Colorado City, Texas. This move was not an easy one for me or Alex. He did not want to leave and I certainly did not want him to either, but life is funny and choices that Alex made this past spring have dictated his options and he was given the choice of either L.A. with mom or Texas with dad and I am happy for him that he choose to be with dad. I know that this will give him a chance to bond with his father and be with his wonderful family there. He will be attending Colorado High School (home of the Wolves) as a Junior in the fall.
Which leaves Rachel and I here in Pueblo. We will go on as we always do I am sure but it will be very different and Alex and Amber will be missed. I will be counting the days until their return for a visit. Although at this point I am not sure when that will be.
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